All that time, to find out what you really think of me. Nice to know, but what you think isn't the be all and end all. I can see that now, I couldn't for a long time. Were you looking to mess it all up? I stopped the talking first... then you blocked me. What's the point?
I have my music, my friends, my job and the fact that I'm so far away from you comforting and supporting me. I'm not a s***, I'm not a w**** and I'm not a nasty b****; despite what you may think. I don't need you. Sure, I'm missing friendship, but look what I'm not missing: being thought of as someone that I'm not.
I don't know how you came to the conclusion of that. I wish I knew.
Or... did I take the wrong point away from that conversation?
Somehow, I'm pretty sure that I got the idea loud and clear. Too bad that you got that impression is all that I can say. I know all the music, the screaming, the writing, the typing, the thinking and the wasted time won't fix anything, but it's helping me to remember that I'm not the one wrong here. I'm not the one with a messed up sense of humour. I'm not the one who broke another's trust and mouthed to others about how terrible you are/were. I respected you too much to do that before now. Now, I respect myself too much to do it. I defended you to so many people after all that happened. I've continued to have a positive attitude toward you, I still do. I'm just disappointed in what has happened.
Please correct me if I'm wrong on any of this (You know who you are and where to aptly contact me) because I'd hate to be wrong. I hate to think that this time though, I probably am right...
No matter what... I still miss you, friend. Yep, I'm messed up too; probably much more than you.
I have my music, my friends, my job and the fact that I'm so far away from you comforting and supporting me. I'm not a s***, I'm not a w**** and I'm not a nasty b****; despite what you may think. I don't need you. Sure, I'm missing friendship, but look what I'm not missing: being thought of as someone that I'm not.
I don't know how you came to the conclusion of that. I wish I knew.
Or... did I take the wrong point away from that conversation?
Somehow, I'm pretty sure that I got the idea loud and clear. Too bad that you got that impression is all that I can say. I know all the music, the screaming, the writing, the typing, the thinking and the wasted time won't fix anything, but it's helping me to remember that I'm not the one wrong here. I'm not the one with a messed up sense of humour. I'm not the one who broke another's trust and mouthed to others about how terrible you are/were. I respected you too much to do that before now. Now, I respect myself too much to do it. I defended you to so many people after all that happened. I've continued to have a positive attitude toward you, I still do. I'm just disappointed in what has happened.
Please correct me if I'm wrong on any of this (You know who you are and where to aptly contact me) because I'd hate to be wrong. I hate to think that this time though, I probably am right...
No matter what... I still miss you, friend. Yep, I'm messed up too; probably much more than you.
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