...I continue to hopelessly wish...

So, talking to him without telling him the full truth about how I feel is getting harder. I keep misinterpreting what he says... Surely he remembers how much I read into things. Sometimes its like he's hinting... but I can never be sure.

Gosh, I really am hopeless...

...I write more inspired material than I have ever before...

Ok... So I know I haven't blogged in a while, but I just have to right now. I guess this will have a pensieve effect (like Dumbledore's pensieve in the "Order of the Phoenix") so my mind will be more clear by the time I intend on going to sleep tonight.

I wrote a poem tonight, and as the title of this post suggests, it's more inspired than before... I'm more inspired than ever. I don't know how to stop myself from thinking about him. I honestly don't. I have been trying for a period of 17 months, 14 days and approximately 5 hours.

I get so frustrated with myself for it. Some how I keep thinking that I'm never going to find another guy to love near as much as I loved him. GAH!

I'm getting tired now, so I guess it's time to stop writing.

I know, I know, its only a short blog... but after writing a full A4 loose leaf page length poem, a diary entry and a status with the author being supposedly unknown, when I know  exactly who wrote it; I am quite worn out.

Bye for now...




P.S. Music is so FANTASTIC!!!!!!