...don't know what to do.
...just don't know.
Trying my best for everyone else, and losing myself.
Losing my friends because I don't, won't and can't say no to working extra shifts, because there is simply no one else to work the hours I do. Losing hours away from work means losing hours to spend quality time with some of my very best friends. I'm sick of being too busy for them; and accidently double-booking myself when I do end up getting time off... Or simply being too sick or tired.
It aches. My muscles ache, my back aches, my feet ache, my head aches; and most of all, my heart aches. My body aches because I do so much, my heart aches because I miss my friends, I miss my family and I miss my late night talker.
It's all swimming around in my brain. I worry that I'm not good enough at my job. I know I'm not good enough at uni at the moment. I certainly think I'm not good enough at being a good friend at the moment and I am completely sure that I'm not looking after myself the way I should be.
The answer to the way I keep dealing with this: Shrug my shoulders, say "Oh well, maybe I'll fix it in a week or so..." and sadly; this cycle continues. It's getting worse as time goes by and I'm really trying to fix it properly now. Let's just hope I end up doing better because, let's face it: failing uni just isn't good enough and neither is not spending enough time with my friends.
Something to finish off with:
Just keep smiling. :)
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