...I ponder on what lay in the past, what lies ahead and what is as I lay here...

...I ponder on what lay in the past, what lies ahead and what is as I lay here...

...lonely in a world full of people, and scared beyond measure.

Saturday, January 15, 2011

...I note some of my major thoughts at the moment...

Just a few random bits and pieces I've been thinking about today:

Facebook like: I'm sorry I don't have glamorous hair, perfect skin, the straightest teeth or the best body. I'm sorry I don't doll myself up all the time and that I wear those baggy shirts around the house. I'm sorry that I like to eat junk food once in a while and I'm sorry that I'm not a fitness guru. I'm sorry I'm not like some of the other girls. But the funniest thing of all is that I'm not sorry.

This just emphasises the fact that I'm not going to be someone I'm not so that people like me. I will be me.

Lately, I've had some suggestions for music from some one, which I now have stuck in my head. I also have some other songs stuck on my head too... So I made a facebook note with them. :)

We Dance to a Different Disco because all we hear is Radio Gaga. The Cat's in the Cradle, Dammit and She Hates Me. I don't think I remember a taste as sweet as this December but just you wait and see: I will, I will, I will Chase that feeling to shake it. I Want You Back In My Hands as I'm Rocking Your Body tonight. I talk to you every now and then; and as I'm Feeling This my thoughts send me on a Carousel. What's My Age Again because I can't sleep and We Don't Deed Another Hero. Ladies and Gentlemand are Werewolves and we'll be Counting the Stars together on the Planets in Bat Country. I'm One Step Closer to Nothing At All, Wendy. As I Break Dance Not Hearts, I Shimmy A Go Go in my Ruby Red shoes. We All Know that's Enough for Now.

Sentences three, four and five are all what I'm sorta thinking about more. Two and three, I really shouldn't, but hey... We are all human.

It's kinda hard to be getting mixed signals from someone; but hey, I'd rather that than not being able to talk to them at all.

Another song that I've been thinking of a lot lately is 'The Time.' The Chorus goes a little bit like this:


I have had the time of my life;
And I've never felt this way before,
And I swear, this is true,
And I owe it all to you!



In case you are wondering, and are old enough to remember, yes: that song was from the awesome movie 'Dirty Dancing.'

On to another point.

Firework by Katy Perry is one of the best songs released in 2010 (other than those by Short Stack, of course) and it's great to listen to when I'm feeling a bit down.

I know this blog doesn't usually have so many references to music, but hey. Music is my favourite thing (other than rain of course; nothing can top that!) so I thought it time to put some music in here. (It wasn;t actually a decision so to speak, but most of the music that is in this post has had me thinking really hard in one way or another in the last few weeks.

Getting on with the blog, a band was recently introduced to me by a good friend of mine. I love the song they suggested and am thinking of researching their other music and to probably get hooked on those as well. What is the name of the band you may ask? They are 'Save Us for Summer' and their song 'Rocking Your Body' has been "rocking my brain" for the last few days. As much as the lyrics aren't the most innocent, I still love them.

Now back to some of my 'same ole' type of blogging.

So the situation with a certain person still hasn't brought itself to head. I've been waiting for months, and thought that maybe in the time that Ive been down here, that he might have wanted to talk in person, like normal friends do; but it seems that's not goiong to happen now unless it happens next weekend. I just want to see him again. He's awesome. I bet if you met him you'd think so too. His university friends apparently call him a 'Mad C**t" and so does Matt, one of our mutual friends. Wrapping up this topic for now though, as much as I would have liked to spend some time with him, I am also a scared chick who thinks that a lot of situations are awkward, so I have still enjoyed my time here so far as I have somewhat compartmentalised all of the 'him' stuff and just enjoyed myself anyways!

I mean, why not? There's been a flood on here. I am from a place in Queensland which has only been affected by the floods in a minor way. Sure the creek behind my house swelled up like a river, and sure the bridge 250m away from my house flooded for a week, but it was ok because my house is 12 metres above and the floods reached a maximum level of eight metres. Photos of said flood will appear on my other blog: http://randommeishness.blogspot.com in time to come.

Something else I have been doing these holidays is studying for my supplementary exams for the uni subjects that I was only one and three marks off of passing. As I have been doing this, I have also been pondering my path to what I will do after uni. As a part of this I considered what aspects of uni I have enjoyed the most. I mean, sure, I enjoyed my practicals for my science degree, but other than that I haven't really been enjoying it at all. As a result of this, I have decided to see how this first semester of second year uni pans out and at the end I will decide whether to continue with science or to drop it for another time. At the present time, I don't feel that I want to continue the science degree for now; and I guess that's ok for me, because I love studying for law.

Well that's enough from me for the night, I've had enough of typing my thoughts so I will disappear, listen to music and talk to people online. :)


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